“There’s no where you can be that isn’t where you’re meant to be.”
This is a philosphy I took from the Beatles and have tried to make a part of my life. When things aren’t going well, I try to stop and look around and figure out what lesson I should be learning from the position I find myself in.
Currently I find myself in another temporary accounting job, and I am not happy. I already know that Finance is not the place for me, perhaps the lesson to be learned this time is that every time I take one of these jobs it’s a step backward for my future as an artist.
An important part of what I’m doing in school right now is building the attitude and psychae of an artist. There is a mindset for being successful that doesn’t come over night. It’s something you have to nurture and grow.
I was on the verge of making a leap in my work and dedication to my art when I took this job. Now I find that I’m letting my school work slide. Partly it’s because the only person I’m letting down in that regard is me, but if I don’t perform to my utmost in this finance job, I’m letting down the people around me.
I am a cog in the machine. Does a cog care about the machine it works in? The machine certainly doesn’t care about me as a person, but as a cog, it’s very aware of my performance.
My mind is expanding beyond this life of being a cog, and each time I take one of these jobs and try to cram myself into the confines of the machine I find the space even more limited.
When this job ends on January 2nd, I am done being part of the machine.
